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Monday, January 14, 2013
For me, the hardest thing to deal with as a parent is when your child achieves a momentous milestone (like sleeping five hours straight) and then however long later (3 days) stops doing it. I blame the many sit-coms I watched growing up that infallibly had a sleep through the night episode if any of the characters became parents. It has been drilled into my brain that once a child sleeps through the night, all the hilarity (tears) end and sweet, sweet sleep begins, never again being interrupted until the teenage sneaking out episodes begin.
Thankfully, I have been down this road before, so the inconsistent sleep patterns of a wee babe aren't utterly devastating to me like they were the first time around. I knew better this time, but I will always be an optimist and I had hoped for the best. Optimist or not, if one more lady at church says their baby slept through the night at five weeks and never fusses while it is awake, I will wipe the floor with her. Okay, only one mom said that to me, but it is the last thing a Christian woman should say to someone that looks as tired as I do.
Yes, Ash is an easier babe than River. Yes, I am better prepared with what to expect this time. Yes, I have already given up any notion of free time... but this is still hard as holy heck and I can't wait for the sweet bliss of a regular sleep schedule to arise. Taking a 2 hour nap 2 days in a row at the same time and then not doing it again is cruel. I need to know when I can get stuff done. (Get out of my apartment before I choke to death on the egg shell colored walls.)
P.S. I am pretty sure I need a 12 step recovery program from the book Babywise. Even though I haven't picked it up since River was a newborn, I can't get their 3 hour feeding cycle out of my brain and I feel horrible guilt and anxiety every time I feed Ash sooner than that or feed him to put him down for naps. Other books even say it is okay, but because Babywise was the first sleep book I read and I was in such a desperate place when I read it, it is stuck in my brain like gospel. Can we say intervention now please?
Posted by The Bears at 10:55 PM